disappointment

I’m so disappointed and frustrated at everything right now. I should be looking forward to college right now, but all this pre-college and end of the school year/high school experience thing is really bringing me down. I feel so much pressure and stress that I do want to just forget it all and maybe act like I don’t care. The truth is that I have to care. I need a job badly. College doesn’t come cheap. I feel for the first time in a long time just how I am losing control of everything. I feel helpless and hopeless.